2 days back (19/1)

Had exercise in the morning.

I didnt really want to run,

so i slacked a little.

We had to run 1 round VJC.

Mr J was running with us.

When i was about to run into the school,

I saw Mr J and a few of my classmates,

so i went to them.

Mr J wanted us to sprint,

1 round the kennel and then,

into the school..

So we started running,

I ran ahead of him,

and he started pressure-rising me.

LOL, i kept running faster.

but i gave up because i was too tired.

But i felt that Mr J helped me.

After recess,

Ardini call me "fat pig" !!!!

I was angry then i grab her uniform.

she pulled hard and I fell off the chair.

lol..

Annabel didnt go to school because she was sick.

Yesterday (20/1)

Had P.E.

We ran half of 2.4km.

And in the end i was 5th.

Yasmyn, Dianty, Danielle, Syazwani then me.

My timing was 10:22s.

After we ran,

we went to take height and weight.

My weight is 39kg.

No time to take height,

...

I had to stay back because of NYAA.

MST took revenge.

She BLINKED at me!!

Hmphh..

...

I fought with Chermine and Jill.

My bff and great friend is gone now..

I only left Syazwani, Dinisha and Clara.

I cannot afford to lose anyone now.

I cant..

I fought with Annabel too.

Fuck her...

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Today.

I didnt go to school today..

Saw M.T today.
She wore this cute black dress,
that really fitted her.
She look really nice in it.
Miss her so much..

...

School was so boring today.
My Hyper-mode didnt activate,
and i was so sleepy.
Didnt do Art H/w,
And Mr J called my Mum.

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I didnt talk to Annabel today,
I didnt smile at her.
All i did was look at her a few times.
I miss her, but i don't know what to do..
ILY A.

I really want to know.
What the fuck you do at home.
Why not let me tell you,
what you do.
You, Fucking dont do anything..
If you went to work,
and earn money for the family,
I wouldnt be so mad at you.
But You're just not doing anything at all.

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I love you.
And i dont want break up with you.
I need time to forget the past.
And you're not helping me.
I hate it when people touch me.
But because of you,
im trying so hard to let go.
I let you hug me,
I let you hold my hand.
So, dont blame me for not doing,
anything with you.

...

Sometimes, I wonder how people.
can stand me..
I hate my attitude,
I hate everything about me.
I cant control my feelings..
...

Love Strikes.

I didnt feel like going to school today.
But because it was a friday,
I had to go to see Annabel :)
We had to do some Yog stuff.
And our class screwed up.
Why isit always my class,
screwing up?
Or isit because,
Im the screwed up :(
Talked to Ang mo girl today.
Said this to Syazwani :
"You're Fucking annoying!"
So many things happened.
After school, Anna,
Hugged me.
I badly wanted a kiss,
but she didnt, and i didnt dare.

Under the Sea.

Went to Science Centre today :)
It was Awesome!
Onmi Theater and Body world were great!
Annabel was with me almost all of the time.
She kept holding my hand :)
But i never really feel,
comfortable when someone touches me.
Not after what he did.

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Played Tennis with Dinisha and Jill.
At the end,
Dini and I were hitting balls.
We wanted to make the ball stuck onto the net.
And in the end,
Jill had to ask a worker to help us. LOL

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Went home with Dini.
Saw Jiajia walking, And we said goodbye.
I looked behind and BOOMZ.
Lightning shocked me..
She smiled at me.
That smile is the sweetest smile i've ever seen.

SOS

Its been like 2months since I blogged. LOL
My Dogs are barking, Im hungry, and I have a headeche.
Im back with her :) Love you baby.
We went to Chijmes today.
Actually we supposed to go malaysia one lor.
Then got bomb :(
But Chijmes was not bad.. Hahaha.
Since school started,
I've been walking pass T, Like million of times.
Keep eye contacting each other during assemblys.
Fuck this shit, 1 time when i looked at her, I cried.
Please get out of my heart.

I need help.
I cant control myself.
I cant, i want to stop, but i cant.
Im fucking depressed.
help.

Theres this new Ang mo girl in my class.
Quite cute, but i so don't like her.
LOL I Like and Love Annabel :)

Saw Queenie and Corrine today,
Supprised my eyes didnt even look at Q.
Hmmm, so my heart is loyal.
Great. lol.