As usual

As usual things are not going well. Everything's crumbling down. Everytime I have a couple of good days, I'll get bad days in return. I don't know what to do. So is tomorrow going to be a bad day too, God? Tell me...
Just show me a fucking miracle. Just tell me that she'll be mind in the end, cause I can't not have her. I really can't. If I could just let go, I would. I'm trying.

So happy yet upset

Ms H got me this last night. I haven't thank her yet, cause I don't know if I should return it to her or not. I love it so much eventhough those weren't really the design that I want. But I like it anyway. I feel like if I accept this I'd be owing her.. She's already given me so many things and yes I'm so fucking happy but it isn't right. It's definitely not right to accept this especially when we're not talking. I don't know what to do, I don't know what to say to her...

My fishy

So long since I did a GIF. So long since I drew. Grrr, sis nagging at me to study, Sian. Sigh kbye

Shall write a proper post tmr,

ʕ•̬͡•ʔ how cute is that?
Hahahah, talked to her today. Happy. Heh Heh Heh. So much to talk about yet so little I'm posting. Too tired, goodnight.

Bad day.

Had a bad day, screwed up Chinese oral. Never did so badly before. Sigh met a new teacher, Ms Chua. Idk what this is all about. I'm so tired. Drew this for her.

List of things I need

I know I know, this is probably the third list I'm making. But seriously I want/need all these! Pretty please?

Longboard accessories

Bracelets

Converse Superman limited edition

Converse Batman limited edition

Vans (every colour)

Casio watches

Doctor Dre beats (need a new one)

Polaroid (I like the colour but I heard that they don't sell the films anymore so Idk)

I took a damn long time adding the photos together, all the things in the photo are pretty much what i want. I know I have no life but it makes me happy to find things I want to get. So I hope I get all of them soon.

One love

Hey there, you look like someone I know. You remind me of the girl I've fallen completely in love with by the name of Nufail.

I'm fucking done

I just want time to freeze. I just want to be alone, tears forming right now as I type this. I'm so tired, yet there's nothing I can do to feel better. To know that everyday it gets harder, it's depressing. To know that there's no one you can rely on, it's worse. Do all teenagers go through this? Cause seriously I had enough.

Maybe I should do that, who cares anyway? I feel better everytime I hurt myself. And I just don't give a fuck anymore

To you.

Have I ever told you, I love you?
Your imperfections, your face, everything about you. You light up my world, you mean everything to me. Everytime I see you, my heart dies. Everytime I think about you my heart dies again. I never told you that whenever you're around me, I can't breathe. You take my breath away, you are my affinity. I love you so much, it hurts so badly. So so badly. This post would never end, I can continue to talk about you. But what's the point when you don't even know this blog exist or my feelings for you even?

Expect the unexpected

It has been a really long day. In the morning, I actually had fun in school. We had free periods for SS and F&N. It's so rare to have Mdm Wahidah absent.. But things got alittle too shitty after school. Really shitty. And then just when I thought today was so fucked up, she replied me. And changed my mood completely. Sigh. I don't know what will happen tmr and I'm actually scared since tmr's Friday the 13th. But I really really hope things will go well with us tmr.

You and me again.

Haiz..

One day, you'll be mine.

Goodnight.

o(╯□╰)o

Why? Do I really suck so much?

Aw └(^o^)┘

I want us to be like that, please.

LMAO

This is too funny.

Good day

I had a really good day today. Though I'm tired, I really am happy. School was somewhat fun. We had pe, Eng, maths and chem. I think I had a nervous breakdown after Eng, so I went crazy. It was so funny. Those that had their N level oral today got to skip Bio. I want to talk about what happened after oral cause that's where the fun part starts but, I'm really tired and as long as I can remember what happened, I'm satisfied (:

Remember what I told you before? Guess not.

Feeling as lonely as ever.
My N level English oral is tomorrow, fuck me now.
Can someone buy a house and build me these rooms for me? I will fucking love you.

Goodbye ........

We haven't talked properly in a very long time. I've been bottling up everything inside. Whatever that's on my mind, stays in there. Why can't you just fix this up? Why can't you just read my mind, and make me happy? You don't want to. If you did we wouldn't be here now. Sometimes I look at the monkey, you bought for me last year, and all I want to do with it is just throw it away. I don't want to rely on it when I cry myself to sleep everynight. I don't want to hug it when I miss you. I don't want to even look at it cause it reminds me of you. Can't you see? Everything around me reminds me of you, and then you're there hurting me. Everyone's out to get me... But you can't. You don't deserve to me hurt me, not anymore. If you don't want me, I'll find someone else who needs me.