The fact that eating is such a torture just goes to show that even my body is giving up.

Pain

I'm always trying to be there for everyone, to please everyone. But where are they when I need someone? Who's there for me when I need to be cheered up? Nobody.
I'm giving up,

You and me?

The only picture that turned out perfect. I think this is probably my favourite picture. I think we really look cute together. I love her, and that's all there is.

KC Family day

So my first birthday present is from Ms H. My first Polaroid camera, Polaroid sx70 one step. I brought it to school yesterday and took a few photos. Everybody loved my camera, but it was so hard trying to take a perfect picture. I had fun yesterday, eventhough the carnival was so boring. I got to spend some time with Ms n, and Ms chua came to talk to me too. Lovely day, couldn't ask for more.
My girl on the right, Ms n. Our first time taking a picture together.
And everyone meet Marley, my awesome camera.

Idk

All alone downstairs. Just sitting in the kitchen with my phone in one hand and a glass of vodka in the other.. Haven't eaten anything and yet I'm drinking but who cares. A stick would be good now. Everything's so fucked up. But who cares. I just have to keep on pretending that everything's fine. But are they really?

Everybody should just fuck off.

National Day 090812

Had a blast

If only

If I had a choice, I'd choose to stop living.
If I wasn't afraid, I'd kill myself.
If life could get easier, I'd be happier.
If only I didn't have any feelings, if only I could control what I say and what I don't.
If only someone knew just how much pain I'm in.
If only someone would be here for me, make my problems disappear, take me away from this horrible place.
If only everything from here came true. At the end of the day, everything's my fault.

Help?

Giving up my extra time for sleep to read, cause when I read it means I want to escape from reality. Yeah it's that bad.

My everything.

My sister told me before that you and I share a special relationship. We are so close, you probably know everything about me, both good and bad. And I probably know almost everything about you. I can't live without you. I love you but I'm not in love with you. I need you, you're like my mother, my sister, my bestfriend. It's like we can be so close and yet not like each other, and I like it this way. You're always there for me, you always try to buy everything I want, you always try to make me happy. You think of me more than yourself and I am grateful to be in your life. When I graduate it won't make a difference cause we will still be close. This is our first photo together, though I look so girly I still like this picture a lot. Love you hafie, Goodnight ♡