Exactly what's on my mind

Hard

Lately I haven't been enjoying the life god gave me... They say life has its ups and downs but for me, I've been living with downs for a really long time. The ratio of my happiness and sadness is like 1:5, every time something good happen, something bad hits me down 5 times harder. To feel that pain in your heart, and to not know what to do to make it go away. It's so hard.