It's a very very mad world.

So i'm tired and still deciding if i should go to church tmr. I miss my kids but i don't want to see the other people.


It's been a long day today and i don't know why but i've been upset the whole day. But at least i didn't show it, my pokerface seems to be getting better everyday. I actually didn't sleep well last night. It rained the whole night and eventhough my windows were closed, I was practically freezing. And i think my sister passed her cough to me. Sometimes i would just randomly wake up in the middle of the night just to cough, that was how bad it was. So you can guess how tired i am right now.


Everybody has been blaming me for everything today. It's like nothing i did was correct, while everything they did was perfect. It happened during baking class, and it happened again at home. My Mum was complaining about my Dad and i tried to side him and in the end i got scolded too. And my Mum asked if i could undertand English.. Thanks for the support Mum.


It's time to take my daily medication, but i don't feel like taking it. This is the third night in the row that i've not taken it... I'm scared. I feel like i can't trust what this pill does to me. Not after what my mum told me about the effects for my other pills. I feel as if nobody believes me, especially the doctors. They think i'm lying about my migraines, they think i'm crazy. Who knows? Maybe i am. I feel crazy. I'm crazy enough to continue living in this fucked up world where no one cares.