11:11

So I hope tmr will be a good day. Eventhough the plan is to study hardcore. I have to do this, final lap.

Always tired, always sad

What could possibly go wrong? Every single thing.

I'm drained

I went downstairs and my mum smiled at me and said sth to me but I just walked past her and ignored her. My dad just came home and he said Hi twice but I ignored him too. I feel so fucking rude, but I can't. I can't look at them in the eye and say anything. I can't face them. I'm so tired. I don't even know when was the last time I wasn't, I don't even remember when I was happy, I don't even know if there will ever be a day that I will be finally happy.
People leaving, people fighting. They don't know that every time there's a fight, I lose. A part of my soul leaves. Everyday I seem to be losing my motivation for anything and everything, especially studying. I keep it all inside, pretend that everything's going well. But when night comes, I go to sleep with a soaked pillow. Cause at night, all my emotions are released from the bottle I keep locked in my heart. It's so hard,

Birthday gift??

Please please can I have a makeover for my room? zomg!

Incomplete tweet

Everyone's happy, what about me?

Wish I wasn't born

I can't, I can't do this. I can't do this anymore.

Lmao

This cheered me up,

It's so hard to please me

What's going on? Am I getting tired of H? She's been so good to me, she supports me, she's here for me every time I'm down. She buys me everything I want, when I'm not even her own blood. She never want anything in return, and why isn't all these enough?
It's just about a week left to my N level. I don't want to take my O's. So this exam is my final lap, five years in secondary school and I can't believe I'm not ready to leave. I'm scared. I don't know what to do. God help me.

Will I ever get to do all these with you?

Give me a gun,