I went downstairs and my mum smiled at me and said sth to me but I just walked past her and ignored her. My dad just came home and he said Hi twice but I ignored him too. I feel so fucking rude, but I can't. I can't look at them in the eye and say anything. I can't face them. I'm so tired. I don't even know when was the last time I wasn't, I don't even remember when I was happy, I don't even know if there will ever be a day that I will be finally happy.
People leaving, people fighting. They don't know that every time there's a fight, I lose. A part of my soul leaves. Everyday I seem to be losing my motivation for anything and everything, especially studying. I keep it all inside, pretend that everything's going well. But when night comes, I go to sleep with a soaked pillow. Cause at night, all my emotions are released from the bottle I keep locked in my heart. It's so hard,
People leaving, people fighting. They don't know that every time there's a fight, I lose. A part of my soul leaves. Everyday I seem to be losing my motivation for anything and everything, especially studying. I keep it all inside, pretend that everything's going well. But when night comes, I go to sleep with a soaked pillow. Cause at night, all my emotions are released from the bottle I keep locked in my heart. It's so hard,
No comments:
Post a Comment