I wish I didn't talk to you.

What happens when there's someone out there that buys for you almost everything you want, everything you can't afford, everything you've ever dreamed of... You take advantage of her, like how I take advantage of her. I can't help it, I'm materialistic and I like a lot of things. And she's the only one that gets me everything... why did I start talking to her all over again?? Not talking was so much better, now I'm asking her to get me an iPhone, Mac book, penny boards. I've already spent about more than 200 bucks from her card in less than two days. I want all these stuff so badly but at the same time I feel like shit. I hate myself. I hate that I'm already getting used to the thought of using my 'future' stuff, now I'm going to reject everything and the only victim in this shit is me. I just really feel like crap