Deprived

I'm in need of a stick right now.
It has actually been one to two months since i had a puff.
But on the night of Easter Vigil,
I broke the promise i made.
I'm just so tired and my craving is getting worse.
I'll start again and this time i will not quit.
& I'd have higher chance of dying. Cause that's what everyone wants right? For me to disappear...