Fml again?

There's only a limit to my patience.
So don't fucking blow it.
So fucking tired of everyone
And how they treat me.
I'm like a dog, a slave, a joke..
What else? Maybe everything else except for a human.
And the only way I'm dealing with all these is just ranting out here on this fucking blog that only i read.
What irritates me most is when i've done so many things and yet I'm never appreciated. People say hurtful things to me, ask me to do so many things for them and when i finally say something back or don't do what they've asked, they get angry... It's like I'm never ever going to have a life. I really ask myself sometimes... Should i just forget about my own feelings completely and just shut my mouth and please everyone? Should i just shut off completely cause obviously I'm not wanted.
In school, at home, where else?
Everyday it gets harder.
I'd give up my life for some kid in Africa who's suffering from some disease or starving right now.
Cause i know every other life out there in this world is so much more worth mine.
The pain in me is unbearable.
Have you ever felt so helpless that it hurts so badly?
It sucks to be in this alone,
It sucks even more that i thought that THEY will stick with me no matter what.
People always say "everybody has there ups and downs"
Is that true? Cause i don't know what or who to believe anymore.
Hope's the only thing that i have, but it's decreasing everytime i fall.
I don't know how long more until i give up completely.