I'm an animal

I want this week to pass quickly.
Today was pretty much a waste of time, I'm sure tmr will be too. So many things have happened over the past few days;
-Stopped talking to Ms t. I miss her so much, I really hate this bittersweet relationship. I want to tell her that I miss her but it's probably useless...
-Started talking to Ms h. I don't know what happened and why we started again, but I don't really care. As long as we're fine, then forget about the past. You know it's cute how she just agrees to whatever I ask. Haha. Just yesterday I was shopping online and now I've a whole list of stuff in my cart that I want to buy. She actually asked me what I was looking at and what I wanted but I didn't tell her. She just has to wait till I buy it first, heh heh. I'm happy that we're talking again, I really hope she is too.
-My health and body system seem to be failing badly. I'm scared, I don't know why am I like that. I don't know what to do. And I just got my red sea today, so the cramps aren't exactly helping. My last stick was on Saturday night, so I'm a little cranky but I cannot get addicted so I just have to be patient. I have a craving for cutting now, but I know I can't too. I can't do this, I can't do that..

I'm so tired, but yet I'm so excited. Can't stop thinking cause someone said she'll buy me everything. And she actually asked if that was everything, hahaha. If that someone is reading this right now, you better hurry get everything before I go crazy. Hahaha. Shall bond with my Xbox now before I sleep. I really want to talk to N, but I can't, probably never will. I'm an animal watch me rawr. RAWR, I guess I lost it. Goodnight to people out there that's gonna sleep with a heavy heart tonight. Tomorrow's a new day, things will get better.